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Conner Singh VanderBeek Exam support group #3 – same as the first group except this time the
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Exam support group #3 – same as the first group except this time they watched me pass my exams and advance to PhD candidacy #abd #stuffedanimalfamily Смотреть полностью
Conner Singh VanderBeek finally got to play around with my parents’ new dryer
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finally got to play around with my parents’ new dryer
Conner Singh VanderBeek sock monkey got new threads 🧵
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sock monkey got new threads 🧵
Conner Singh VanderBeek happy 4th to my STRONG BOY sahj singh. hanging out with you and your s
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happy 4th to my STRONG BOY sahj singh. hanging out with you and your sister is always such a party, and I’m so very proud and overjoyed to be your conner chachu #sahjsingh Смотреть полностью
Conner Singh VanderBeek detroit by day, toronto by night
Detroit, Michigan
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detroit by day, toronto by night
Conner Singh VanderBeek After four semesters, seven performances, and one premiere, my time as
University of Michigan School of Music, Theatre & Dance
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After four semesters, seven performances, and one premiere, my time as assistant teacher to the gamelan comes to a close. I told my students at the beginning of this semester that gamelan is the biggest party in the music school, and it didn’t take long to convince them. Gamelan has been my favorite part of this PhD program, and I owe very many thanks to the students, the wonderfully sassy community members, and my teachers Ibu Susan Walton, Pak Raharja, and Mas Steve Laronga. Because of the gamelan, I grew as a musician and teacher and learned more about the incredible music of Java (and several of its instruments) than I could have ever imagined. I will definitely be back. Смотреть полностью
Conner Singh VanderBeek SOCK BUNS (left to right): 1. ਲੌਂਗ (clove), 2. ਚਕਰ ਫ
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SOCK BUNS (left to right): 1. ਲੌਂਗ (clove), 2. ਚਕਰ ਫ਼ੂਲ (star anise), 3. ਪਯਾਜ (onion), 4. ਲਸਣ (garlic). ਬੜਾ ਸਵਾਦ ਜਿਂਦਗੀ ‘ਚ ਪਾਏ ਯਾਰਾਂ Смотреть полностью
Conner Singh VanderBeek BUNSTACK PYRAMID #bunny #stuffedanimal #craft #aliensdidnotmakethis
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BUNSTACK PYRAMID #bunny #stuffedanimal #craft #aliensdidnotmakethis
Conner Singh VanderBeek exam support group #2: a turtle, a little cheesu, some cloves, and som
Burton Memorial Tower
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exam support group #2 : a turtle, a little cheesu, some cloves, and some garlic
Conner Singh VanderBeek GENERAL ETHNOMUSICOLOGY PRELIMINARY EXAM LET’S GO FINNA BE ABD IN N
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GENERAL ETHNOMUSICOLOGY PRELIMINARY EXAM LET’S GO FINNA BE ABD IN NINE DAYS
Conner Singh VanderBeek cw: abuse and suicidal thoughts Spring is not kind to me. In 2010, I
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cw: abuse and suicidal thoughts Spring is not kind to me. In 2010, I had a four-month bout of insomnia. In 2012, I experienced my first thoughts of self-harm. In 2013, I was at the tail end of a long-term relationship that had turned verbally and emotionally abusive. I was told repeatedly that I was worth less than nothing. Needless to say, it was thoroughly traumatizing. Six years later, and those memories still sometimes take hold of me like they happened yesterday, even though the people from then bear little resemblance to who we are now. I still get occasional flashbacks that make me forget how long it has been. Though some years have been easier than others, spring is never kind to me. In the years since 2013, I have had bouts of self-harm and suicidal thoughts—thankfully, none of which I ever acted on. I have consistently pushed others too hard to support me and alienated them in the process. It’s always a tightrope of telling someone I need their help then blaming them when they can’t prop me up. I’m bad at it. Creating my way out of depression usually works. Depending on the year, I’ve made silly Instagram videos, composed heart-wrenching music, and sewn stuffed animals. I have an ever-increasing trail of creative output specifically geared towards helping me through times like these. Lately, the most fruitful outlet has been audiovisual works. Trauma is a chronic condition. It is a complete shattering of the self and, like a physical injury, hurts even years later. For me, it is both self-inflicted and has been enacted upon me. The fear of slipping causes me to slip again. No matter how much time passes, trauma never goes away. Even tonight I found myself stuck on vignettes I wish I could have forgotten long ago. This year has been better than previous ones, and even the past two or three years have held more good than bad. I will never be “over” my experiences (whatever that means), but I always work to find positive outlets for even my worst moments. (Pictured: stills from audiovisual works from the last two years, including collaborations with percussionist AJ Covey and poet David Alejandro Hernandez) Смотреть полностью
Conner Singh VanderBeek in other news, teaching gamelan, the biggest party at the university o
University of Michigan School of Music, Theatre & Dance
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in other news, teaching gamelan, the biggest party at the university of michigan, continues to be my favorite part of grad school #music #gamelan #ethnomusicology Смотреть полностью
Conner Singh VanderBeek ballad-ing #piano #composition #jazz
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ballad-ing #piano #composition #jazz
Conner Singh VanderBeek 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐛𝐮𝐭𝐞𝐬
Ann Arbor, Michigan
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𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐛𝐮𝐭𝐞𝐬
Conner Singh VanderBeek family vacation
Switzerland
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family vacation
Conner Singh VanderBeek peak sup cuz
St. James's Park
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peak sup cuz
Conner Singh VanderBeek finishing touches to fugue no. 2 #piano #music #composition #茄子
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finishing touches to fugue no. 2 #piano #music #composition #茄子
Conner Singh VanderBeek peak winter
Argo Park
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peak winter
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